|7:30am trainer session glow :)|
If you've been following along, my 30 Day Fitness Update resulted in tons energy and 5 pounds lost, and my 60 Day Fitness Update saw both a renewed love of fresh homemade food, and 5 more pounds down. Suffice it to say, the last 30 days have been much harder.
Here's the deal. I've reached that point where I've shed the quick and easy 10 pounds (though there's nothing easy about working your ass off at 43!), and now I'm into the nitty gritty of it. I know that old tale that fat weighs less than muscle and that when you start to loose weight you can only be so obsessed with the scale because it doesn't reflect all the other positive changes happening to your body. This I now know to be true.
The reality is that I have never been this strong in my life. Ever. And that is an amazing and wonderful thing. I have stamina and energy like never before and can do things that I never knew to be possible. I am absolutely building muscle and my pal and fitness partner Haley and I sometimes compare our arms and how we can flex muscles in our upper arms (both the front and the back!) for the first time ever. It's truly remarkable what the body can do.
But I'm not going to lie, the fact that I've only lost 3 pounds over the last 30 days really pisses me off. It's not an accurate account of all the achievements I've made, but still, those numbers mock me as they look up at me from my feet. Damn you scale!
|my body now - strong and smaller!|
So let's focus on some other numbers that are amazing.
Starting body measurements:
Bust - 39" Waist - 34" Belly - 40" Hip - 41" Upper Arm - 12.5" Upper Thigh - 24"
Current body measurements:
Bust - 36" Waist - 31.5" Belly - 38" Hip - 39" Upper Arm - 11.5" Upper Thigh - 23"
I have lost real inches around my entire body! That is amazing. I know I feel stronger, more muscular, and have lost weight on the scale, but to actually measure your body shrinking feels fantastic. So while the scale might judge me, I know that the age old story about muscle weighing more than fat is true. I also can tell that with more muscle my metabolism has really changed and I no longer crave bad foods to help make myself feel better.
All of this is to say that I recognize that in the big picture, I am still just beginning. And if I continue to lose 3 pounds a month, I will be happy and I will not beat myself up about it moving faster because all the good I am doing to myself seriously outweighs quick weight loss. So while I'm anxious and antsy to get to my goals quickly, I know that's not really how it's done. And I'm hardly stagnant in my progress, and so I need to acknowledge that and give myself some credit for all the good that's going on.
Proof in addition to the actual numbers and the way I feel is looking at photos of the past. I'm sure everyone has a breaking point, or a "rock bottom" or some similar moment, but for me it was my pal Jennifer's wedding this past fall. I felt huge and when I saw the photos of the wedding, my feelings were confirmed. It was the biggest I've ever been and I clocked in at almost 160 pounds. I know that each person's journey is their own, and that 160 is the goal weight for those heavier, so I don't want to judge anyone else or belittle that number. But for me, this was my ceiling.
|my body before - soft and weak|
Next month I hope to report similar strides and if anyone's interested, I could pass on some of the fitness gems I've learned from my training sessions. I'm developing quite an extensive catalogue of workouts that are easy to do without equipment. If you're into that, let me know!
Thanks as always for the messages and comments of support along the way. I am so happy that I am helping inspire some of you to get moving too, and I want to send mad love to my girl Haley who is kicking ass too! She texted me today to tell me that she ordered her first two piece bathing suit for the first time since high school and that this is the best she's ever done on a resolution. Go Haley!